Why

has it been so hard to sleep at night lately. I feel like i lost something very important, and i will never get it back. In reality that is the truth but i often wish i could have it back, maybe not even all of it, but 1/100 of it could get me to sleep at night without this uneasy feeling, that love was lost. It is never lost, like science energy can niether be created nor destroyed, love cant be created nor destroyed, it can be transferredm but not all of it, some always stays behind as if their is some hope that the rest will come back. maybe its a good thing i havent slept proper in agges, im reading more and i am thinking more, but i just wish my thoughts would come to an conculsion. I have an insatiable urge live, love, and learn...i just wished other shared that as much, then perhaps alot less anger and hatred would be sheded upon this world..especially when just a week ago the feeling was the exact opposite.